Posts tagged Lovin' Life Ministries
Posts tagged Lovin' Life Ministries
An interview with Ben Lorentzen by Yolanda Brener
This was pre-death of SMM/In Jin-Jin Sung controversies/etc.
Why did anybody trust this ministry?
It is tough being expected to act like a sinless son or daughter of Sun Myung Moon when you do not know what that means. Moon naively hoped his children would inherit his dubious ‘foundation’ but he did not know how to parent. Instead of guiding his children Moon chose fishing. Moon was the distant father who acted like a tyrant, expecting his children to bow to him and then forcing them to marry undesired strangers just like their mother Hak Ja Han did.
Moon’s children do not follow DP. The few children who were associated with the Unificationism have other interests. In Jin Moon preferred to manage a band and screw its members. Hyo Jin was the band and lived for his addictions. Hyung Jin preferred Buddhism and martial arts. Kook Jin wanted only to play with weapons. Only Hyun Jin chose to follow Sun Myung Moon.
Young Jin Moon chose suicide, from the 17th floor of a Vegas hotel. Pressure, blame, guilt and superstition can mess with a person’s head. Sun Myung Moon lost the respect of his children that day and went back to work.
Young Jin’s tragic end is similar to that of Alynn Pike, wife of Rev. Ted Pike. Ted Pike went to work giving radio interviews 3 days after his wife committed suicide by jumping off a river bridge. Alynn who suffered body pains since marrying Ted Pike had been operated for a brain tumor, became depressed and suicidal. Ted Pike claimed his wife was a martyr and that she had been a victim of demon possession. Moon made similar wild claims about Young Jin’s death. In neither case did their supposed relationship with God avert tragedy. Moonies typically blamed Satan or communists when they failed to succeed. The antisemitic Rev. Ted Pike irrationally blamed ‘the Jews’ just like UPF/MEPI members Lord Nazir Ahmed did when he failed to escape sentencing for dangerous driving which killed a man. Scapegoats allow wicked people to distract attention away from their misbehavior.
Hatred and prejudice are signs of a delusion which when stoked daily create an obsessive, unbalanced mind. David Cole was a Holocaust revisionist who was used by Jew-haters but later retracted his anti-Jewish stance (which Frank Frivilous failed to mention) admitting that his self-hatred had been emotional not intellectual. Unfortunately, intense hatred of a race can lead to people hating their own grouping as when blacks use the ‘nigger’ word or change their appearance to look white, like Michael Jackson.
Growing up is not easy but being the child of Moonie parents brings extra difficulties and mental anguish. Moonie parents let your children go free, drop the brainwash, it did not work for you and it is unfair to force it on them.
This official memo from the new Executive Vice President, Dr. Michael Balcomb, does not apologize for Heather Thalheimer covering up for In Jin and excusing her publicly to 2nd Generation. It’s a shame.
October 12, 2012
Dear Members and Blessed Central Families,Warm greetings in the name of God and True Parents! Thank you for your prayers and devotions as we continue to affirm our dedication and commitment to God’s Will in this time following True Father’s ascension.
This memo is to officially confirm a change in leadership in the American church. Following the earlier resignation of the Church President and CEO, Mrs. Heather Thalheimer has resigned from her position as Director of Education and Ministry. This change is effective as of October 11, 2012.
We would like to express our thanks and appreciation to Heather for her service, sacrifice and hard work over the past four years. As Director of Ministry and Education, she helped to introduce new educational curricula for membership, innovations in worship services, youth and pastoral ministry, and more. She assembled a talented, multi-generational team that has made great contributions to our national outreach.
We also want to thank Heather’s husband, Philip, and the entire Thalheimer family for the very considerable sacrifice of allowing Heather to work apart from them away from home for days and weeks at a time. The support and dedication of the entire family is much appreciated.
We wish the best for Heather in her future endeavors as she continues to serve God’s Providence here in America.
Dr. Michael Balcomb
Executive Vice President
"Hi guys, I always thought that LLM was based on the information collected from the witnessing summits. Yesterday I found out that that information was not used and that the people guiding this part of the ministry were not used. This was just another shock and disapointment for me. I hope we can still find the people that organized these summits and work together to build a movement that can bring new members."
Questions In Jin Nim pushed forward (and one possible set of answers):
1. How do we become a professionally run church?
Leadership roles based on nepotism, not ability. What the leader says goes. Those who question are banished. Follow spiritualists. Forget practical realities. No checks and balances.
2. How do we become a healthy church?
Make sure give-and-take is not reciprocal. No 3-objects purpose. Mislead those in the object/Cain position. Ignore what “the world” thinks of you. Keep secrets. If caught, make it sound good (if possible, providential). Deceive yourself first.
3. How do we rebrand the church to be relevant?
“Love Life Ministries.” “The movement for unity between brothers.” “Arms for World Peace.” “Help Support A Usurper - With Cash (HSAU-WC).”
Jin Sung Park writes to the members on September 30:
Dear Brothers and Sisters,
As In Jin Nim’s husband for almost 30 years, I write to you today to disclose my role in events that have brought such great heartache to God, True Parents, True Children, my family and all the brothers and sisters of our movement. It is my sincere hope that you will receive my letter with an open heart.
Some years ago, I experienced a personal crisis and lost my faith in God and True Parents. This led me to violate the standards of the Blessing and conduct a secular lifestyle that was unacceptable. I emotionally and physically abandoned In Jin Nim and my family, and they suffered terribly. Instead of reporting to True Parents and asking True Father for a new Blessing, as she probably should have, she gave me the room to recover and restore my faith. In September 2006, I successfully completed rehab and returned home to participate in raising our children together. In Jin Nim’s patience and love allowed me the chance to renew my love and faith in God and True Parents.
Although I had recovered my faith, I had, nevertheless, damaged our Blessing. While I can’t say our relationship was strong prior to the personal crisis I refer to above, my actions clearly hindered any chance we had at fixing our Blessing. In Jin Nim allowed me to stand as her husband so that I could continue to play a role in the lives of our children. However, she and I never resumed marital relations. This was a very lonely time for In Jin Nim, and looking back, now, I deeply regret not trying harder to restore a healthy Blessing relationship with her. We needed professional marriage counseling to heal our relationship with each other and with our children, yet we did nothing. Additionally, I should have sought out help from other True Family members. The reality is though, I felt so weakened by my own sins and so unworthy to be In Jin nim’s husband that I convinced myself that the only course of action I had available to me was to not challenge her.
My mistakes in my Blessing created a condition for greater indemnity. As we dealt with our difficult Blessing, In Jin Nim was suddenly given the heavy responsibility of the American church. She and I were no longer private individuals and working on our Blessing seemed virtually impossible. In Jin Nim set out to fulfill her Father’s expectations and to serve the members, especially the second generation, the best she could. After giving In Jin Nim this responsibility, True Father turned to me and said, “And you, Jin Sung, you will help In Jin from behind the scenes.” In Jin Nim also asked me to help her, and I did my best to support her. She loved music and wanted to create a music ministry and worked closely with the band and with Ben Lorentzen when he joined the effort in August 2009.
During the next two years, there was evidence of a growing relationship between In Jin Nim and Ben, and yet, I failed to speak to her about it. At times I longed for someone on her core staff to intervene on my behalf or to counsel In Jin Nim or Ben about a proper course of action. The reality was, however, that no one around In Jin Nim, myself included, had the courage or strength of character to counsel her to go to True Parents. In an enabling way, some chose to support In Jin Nim by tearing me down and building up Ben in the process.
I found out about her pregnancy when I initiated a conversation with her in December 2011. I had just finished a 40-city tour giving my Testimony of True Children’s Suffering Course that many of you received warmly. I had received a dream about her being pregnant, so I asked her if this was true. In Jin Nim told me that it was and began to cry. We talked about the incredible pain this would cause True Parents and all the members. I asked her if there was any hope for us to continue as a couple, and she said she and Ben had decided to move on with their lives together. She told me that she did not want to break True Father’s heart and that she would resign after True Parents could reach a victorious Foundation Day. She asked me to help her, and I promised her that I would. At the time, I knew the consequences of this situation were so dreadful that I was afraid to take direct responsibility for its disclosure. Looking back now, I am so sorry to all the members for being complicit in the cover-up and not allowing True Father the opportunity to directly preside over this matter.
As we all know, our beloved and victorious True Father did not make it physically to Foundation Day and neither did the secret of the baby. It is almost impossible to imagine a more painful set of events than the news of In Jin Nim’s new baby coming out just three days after True Father ascended to spirit world. When In Jin Nim and I informed Hyung Jin Nim and Kook Jin Nim on September 7, 2012 about Ben and the baby, they were completely shocked and dismayed. The next day, In Jin Nim, my sister and I informed True Mother. This was the most painful experience of my life. True Mother’s hopes and confidence in In Jin Nim were shattered, and she wept uncontrollably. I repented to True Mother for all my failures and testified that it was my unworthiness that had led to this tragedy. True Mother asked me if I wanted to stay Blessed to In Jin Nim, and I asked True Mother to grant In Jin Nim what she wanted, which was to move forward without me. True Mother then asked In Jin Nim to resign immediately and go to Boston. She asked me to return to my parents. She wanted to protect her grandchildren and asked them to continue working at HSA.
Brothers and Sisters! Could you imagine a greater tragedy than this? I know you are suffering greatly. Please imagine True Mother’s suffering right now. True Father has ascended and now two great leaders of the True Family, Hyun Jin Nim and In Jin Nim have broken the heart of our True Parents. How is this even possible? True Mother knows how this affects the members. She anguishes every day about the loss of faith this will cause for many. Even now, she has sent Hyung Jin Nim traveling across America to comfort the members, even as some of the members express resentment and dismay.
In retrospect, I should have acted differently. I should have upheld the purity of the Blessing with my life despite the difficulties we faced in our relationship. I should have fought harder to renew my Blessing with In Jin Nim after my mistakes. I should have reported to True Parents about the state of our Blessing at the time In Jin Nim was appointed to HSA. I should have spoken to In Jin Nim honestly when there was early evidence of a relationship. Maybe, I should have spoken to Ben early on and ask him what was going on or ask someone in the band to speak to him. I should have reported to True Parents about the pregnancy in December 2011. Today, however, I am only able to repent for all these failures. I am indeed unworthy and have failed to live up to my responsibilities. I sometimes wish I could simply disappear! Instead, all that I can do is hope for your compassion and say with all sincerity—I am deeply sorry, please forgive me.
I go on only with God and True Parents’ merciful forgiveness. I go on with the hope that despite all the tragedies caused by my failures that God is somehow working. I have to believe—after all I have seen this church go through—that everything happens for a reason. I believe that “restoration through indemnity” is the process by which God allows archangel to invade us and cause a loss of faith precisely because the True Parents are the True Parents, and we exist as members of Their holy lineage. By repenting our sins and receiving God and True Parents’ forgiveness, we thereby help True Parents subjugate archangel. I believe that True Parents paid huge indemnity throughout their lives, but none is more painful than when the archangel invades the True Children. I also sincerely believe, after spending so many years with the True Children, that they ultimately will all be victorious through their own repentance and re-unity with God and True Parents.
Brothers and Sisters. So many of you have expressed love and compassion to In Jin Nim, to me and to our children. I sincerely thank you for that. I have served and attended True Children for 40 years now. They are so sensitive and special in heart. It is such a privilege to personally know them. During difficult periods in their lives, I tried my best to attend them. True Father taught me to love the True Children with all my heart, not to judge them, but to use good judgement to guide them towards True Parents. I know that I have failed them over and over again, and yet, they continue to receive me with love. Unworthy as I am, I am grateful for the incredible journey I have traveled with them. As True Mother requested, I intend to return to my family and live a private life. Thank you brothers and sisters for all the love you have shown me. Please do not worry about me. True Father appeared to me at the moment of His ascension. He was shining bright, young and so handsome and He told me that He loves me. He also said, “Don’t worry Jin Sung, everything will be all right.” I will always be eternally grateful for the love I continue to receive from God, True Parents, True Children and my own children.
Please love True Mother and all the True Children. They need you just as True Father needed you. You were there for True Father. Now be there for True Mother and the True Children in their hour of greatest need. In the next few months, it will be determined by all of us whether we will see an era of confusion or an era of hope centered upon the holy leadership of our beloved True Mother and our beloved True Sons and True Daughters. Aju!
Thank you for having an open heart.
September 30, 2012
How can a supposed messiah fail to spot sin?
Sun Myung Moon was oblivious to daughter In Jin Moon’s adulterous affairs. Father Moon did not notice In Jin was pregnant and that his sinless Korean lineage had been infiltrated by that adulterous Ayran half-blood, Satan-following, Blessing-breaker, Ben Lorentzen. Mr and Mrs Sun Myung Moon were not present at the birth of their grandchild. They did not send flowers or a card.
Several of Moon’s officially recognized children have broken their Blessings, been unfaithful, tormented their partners, divorced, remarried and one committed suicide because he was Moon-matched to a woman who was later discovered to have fallen. Moon is as bad a matchmaker he is a bad father, and a failed messiah.
How can Moon match couples if he has no special ability to see their lineage?
It seems that Moon can be easily fooled and that he lied about having mystical powers.
Sun Myung Moon cannot recognize his own children! He was fooled by Zimbabwean Cleopas Kundioni, who pretended to be his dead son, Heung Jin Nin Moon.
Moon failed to correct the bad behavior of his children. Moon has had so many children and given them almost zero attention. Some of Moon’s children have been hidden, although they were supposed to be providential children. It seems that Moon is embarrassed by his numerous affairs. Moon has a problem with sin, his own sin.
Few of Moon’s children got involved with his supposed mission. Some never got matched nor blessed by him. The few Moon children who are active in the UC leadership do not understand Moon’s teaching and never followed the sacrificial path demanded for UC members.
If Moon’s children are so disorientated, misled and poor representatives of what Moon taught then why would anyone follow them? Sun Myung Moon is no longer in charge. You do not want to get stuck with a perpetually sinning “True Child” as your leader, do you?
by P. Lorentzen
September 20, 2012
Much has been written about the New York incident by several people so I didn’t think there was any point in sharing more about what actually happened to me there. However some details were missing to the story and I was encouraged to share them.
I would like to emphasize the fact that my children and I do not consider ourselves the victims. The ones who lie, cheat, deceive and abuse their authority are the real victims of their own actions. We do appreciate all the letters of concern and all the prayers we have received for the past two weeks, many of them being from ex-members actually.
We do not want to be connected to what has become of this movement as we feel safer outside of it. We haven’t lost our faith in God because of this or gratitude in our lives and I believe that’s what matters in the end. I just knew that in God’s good time, things would unfold and be revealed. It took 3 years.
When we decided to visit Ben in New York for Christmas 2009 I had asked him beforehand if I could have a bedroom at the New Yorker. It took days before I could get an answer as, apparently, IJ would not confirm whether or not I could come and have a room. I finally got one.
When we arrived in NY, I realized that I had to pay for the all the costs on top of the flight (food, transport and outings…) as Ben apparently had not received his income and couldn’t pay for anything during our stay.
Up to this day I never got any money back for the whole trip and it cost me 4000 dollars. I have asked to be reimbursed but I never got any answer.
We arrived December 17 and already then, I could feel something was wrong. IJ’s constant phone calls while we were out visiting, the hundred dollar bill she gave to each of my children and to Ben as a Christmas gift, I got nothing, plus many other details. I discovered by accident some days later, some emails between Ben and Tatiana Park. I will not reveal the sexual contents, but it was obvious that an affair had started between those two; I faced Ben right away, in private, and he admitted then that something was going on between them and had started not so long ago. His first question was “are you going to blackmail now?” I replied that I would only make sure someone would pass on my report to Father, that’s all. To this day, I do not know if the person I reported to did the job.
The fact that Ben had another relationship with someone was not a surprise in itself, as he had had a series of girlfriends before that. I was mostly upset by the fact that he was now having a relationship with a married woman and IJ on top of that. My boy who was 13 at that time could already sense there was something wrong between those two, so when I told Ben in front of them “how can you have a relationship with a married woman?” he totally understood who I was referring to although English is not his first language. My children stood up, took their mattress and bag, left the room and one of them said “I’m out of here because I understand what’s going on.” That was the last time Ben saw them. They have refused since then to have any contact with him. They do not consider him their father any longer and have told him so after we came back home.
So here we found ourselves in my small room after that with two single mattresses for the three of us, not enough blankets and so we slept with socks, tights, jumpers and coats because it was too cold in that room. When I asked Ben for an extra cover, I was given a curtain. He refused to give me the key to the laundry room to get more covers. That’s how badly we were treated. The only nice person we met in the building during our stay was the cleaning guy. His name was Angel.
If the boys and I could sense back then that something weird was going on between those two in such a short time, I cannot comprehend how the people who saw them almost daily as well as the leaders had not suspected anything in 3 years. My children were truly depressed by the way we were treated and about the affair. I tried to cheer them up every day and told them we would be fine. We would go out every day, visiting places the way we had originally planned.
The day I found out about the affair, I managed to have a meeting with Philip Schanker at the New Yorker. I reported in detail to him everything I had read and seen. I was not sure if he would believe my story. But if he did, I told him it had to be passed on upward.
Philip told me he believed my report not only because it was sincere but because he had heard of similar incidents a while back about her as well. I guess he was referring to Alistair. So he promised he would do something about it; I believe he did back then, but I’m not sure he reported it to the right person.
I got a letter from him January 2010 confirming that my report was passed on. To whom, I don’t know. I never heard from Philip afterward.
During my stay, I wrote to IJ twice and asked to meet her in the building. She never responded of course. In my third letter I clearly stated that I would then make sure my report would be passed on. When I went back to my room later that day, Ben and Bill Miho were waiting for me at the door. They apparently had something important to say.
I replied that I was not interested in talking. I locked the door behind me and Ben shouted through it that I had to pack my things and leave by noon the next day because of the letter I had written. If I wasn’t out by then, they would come back with the security.
My boys were inside the room and understood what went on. My eldest boy asked “mum, am I hearing right? Are we thrown out?” I unfortunately had to confirm.
I went to see Ben afterwards and asked if I could stay one more night as it would be difficult to find a hotel room in the middle of Christmas.
He simply replied that he didn’t care and that I should just change my plane tickets and go back home. He would pay for it. I never got the money back.
So I packed our luggage, the kids were in tears, and we moved out just before the security came as I wanted to spare my boys the humiliation. I asked them what they wanted to do and they strongly expressed their desire to go back home as soon as possible. I managed to rent a room for a night and change my plane tickets to leave the next day. It cost around 1000 dollars just for that. I asked for a room among the two people I knew in NY but they refused to help. So at that point the best was to leave. I have never reported this to any leader other than Philip S. And I never gossiped around about it the way some might have insinuated.
The kids and I have moved on and turned the page. We have always kept a positive and optimistic attitude towards life and I believe it did help us. Up to this day Ben L. owes us around 50,000 dollars of unpaid child support for the past years plus 4000 dollars for this trip. When I contacted his parents about this, they simply told me that they didn’t care. His parents are church members by the way. I have provided for my children all those years on my own or with very little support. I sent a process server several times to the Manhattan Center to serve the divorce documents and that person was always told that no one by the name of Ben Lorentzen worked there. I asked Philip if he could swear an affidavit to prove that Ben was working at the MC so that I could proceed with the divorce. I never got a reply. I’m only sharing this story for the ones who seek the truth. They are entitled to know what happened. I also sincerely hope that this will never occur in the future. My motivation is only to shed light on what has been hidden for too long.